Today's topic is life.
Next month I will be twenty-five years old! That's a scary thought. Feels like just yesterday I was in high school (2011 ago). When I was in high school I wanted to go to school for nursing. A month after I graduated high school I enrolled in a summer class at my community college. I took Microbiology lecture/lab. I loved the class and the teacher. I even passed the class with a b! After summer term ended and the fall term started I was a full time college student ( go Eagles!) College was actually nerve wracking for me. I was such, and still is a very socially awkward person. Making friends was hard because I was shy and didn't care to talk to people. I tried to be a good student. My first semester I always went to class, did my homework, did extra credit, etc. At one point I started failing A&P I and math. My test scores have always been terrible. It's like I would pass everything but tests. When the time came to take the HESI test for the nursing program I signed up to take it. I bought HESI study materials and started studying. I took the test and waited for results to be posted. When the results were posted I found out that I passed my test! I passed the test to get into the LPN program!! I scored 70 points which was more than needed to pass. I met with my councilor to discuss what was next then the bad news came. She told me that even tough I passed the exam to get into the program, I wasn't passing the classes I needed. There were still other classes that I needed to take like public speaking which I was trying to avoid. That broke my heart. I felt defeated and didn't know what to do.
The next semester after getting my grant check, I slowly started skipping classes. I wasn't doing homework. I really felt like college wasn't for me. I eventually stopped all together. I even started at another college taking online classes in 2014. I was going for medical billing and coding. I enjoyed the classes and the teachers were really nice. I worked hard and studied. Submitted my assignments on time.With only two months left in my program, I quit.My councilors and teachers started emailing me and calling asking why I haven't been active in my classes. I didn't know what to tell them. I apologized and left it at that. I regret not being stronger to overcome what I was going through so I could actually finish something. I felt like I was letting people down. Now I am almost 25 no degree, certificate or nothing. Just a high school diploma. I want to go back to school but now I owe two different schools money. This point in my life nursing is a distant dream and medical billing seems more easier to grasp. I want better and I want to be great at whatever I decide to do. If you can dream it, you can do it. Just have to make sure you have the actions to back up your wants.