Hi there! It really has been a while since I made a post. A lot has happened with my family and I this month. So about maybe two or three weeks ago we were in a car accident. We were on the way home and a car came our of nowhere and hit us! What was messed in that situation is that the man driving the vehicle that hit us, he was under the influence, driving with no lights, had no license or insurance. My grandmother's car was totaled. :( Thankfully it was only me, my boyfriend, and my uncle. Our little one was safe at home asleep. Two weeks after that, we were in another car accident and this time Aubree was with us. We were with my cousin on our way to her house. I still don't know what really happened but it was a four car hit. The back of her car was messed up. The back window was broken, the bumper was in the trunk, and the driver's seat was broken. I was so scared because Aubree was with us. My cousin's car was totaled as well. Something good from these experiences is that my boyfriend and I walked away with not a scratch on us. Just a little pain. I am just happy that I was able to walk away from this and be with my family. :) Oh how rude of me! I'm sitting here babbling. It's late but Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! My family had a great Christmas and I am very much looking forward to the new year. School starts back January 6th. Medical Billing and Coding here I come!
I cannot believe how this year has flown by! This time last year Aubree was just a couple days old. Now she is one! I have learned a lot this year and I cannot wait to learn even more. But back on topic: fall. I adore this time of year. The air gets cooler, the leaves change colors, and the term "sweater weather" pops out. Sometimes I hope that if the weather gets cooler, people would stay in and violence would decrease. But honestly, violence isn't going to stop just because it's cold out. But on a happier note, the fair is approaching in my city and I can't wait to take my sister and Aubree. I know she's only one but she'll enjoy the colors and food. Stay safe guys.
This post is very random, but let's talk about love. I know I'm way behind but I just recently watched The Hunger Games. And wow! Now I want to see the second movie and read the books, haha! To my point, in the movie, Katniss and Peeta (sorry if it's spelled wrong, bare with me) were kinda urged to become an "item". Especially after Peeta confessed his love for her live on tv. And also during the Hunger Games their mentors thought it would help them get sponsors if the two portrayed being a couple, which in the end, I believe, actually happened. Where am I going with this?
•Point 1- Haven't you noticed that almost every movie has romance in it. Whether it be sexual or pure love, it's there. For example: Hunger Games, Twilight, and the upcoming Fifty Shades of Grey movie. I've wondered, does the world put love in everything because that's what we strive for, to be loved? In one of Lorde's songs, she talks about competing for a love we won't receive. The world is full of successful romance and hopeless romantics but don't we all deserve to be loved by someone? Last night in church, the pastor said that if we love someone we should say it more, because people forget.
•Point 2- Romance novels, in my opinion gives people hope for the "love" they want. For example, when Fifty Shades of Grey came out it's like every female in the world was reading it. I also read a lot of reviews about how wives wanted to be treated like Ana in the book.
Well this concludes my little random rant, hope you enjoyed it!
Within the past couple years I've had so much to happen in my life. A few years back my sister lost her dad, my grandmother lost her mom, and my sister, brother, and I lost our mom. Honestly I took all the loses pretty hard. My sister's dad was the only dad that I've had. He loved me and my brother like we were his children. We argued and I gave him attitudes like he was my dad. Having a daughter of my own I see how important it is for a father and daughter to have a relationship. Maybe I just didn't really understood his heart, but even before my sister came along her dad was in me and my brother's life for a good year or two. I really miss my mom and step dad and not a day goes by that they don't pass my mind. It really kills me that they can't see my daughter. They would have been so proud of me. Rip mom and dad..
I have lived in Mississippi my whole life. I won't say I just LOVE living here but it's home. Recently, maybe the past year or two, the little town of Meridian has been struck with havoc and torture. It's really not safe to take our children to the parks, go for walks, or really anything. Meridian has been struck with something evil. Gang violence, shootings, murders, theft, drugs, and pretty much all of the above. Aubree is five months old and I have a nine year old sister, This is not a place where I want them to grow up. I don't allow my sister to play outside anymore because I just don't trust that she'll be okay by herself. Even if it is in our own yard. People are buying guns a guard dogs to protect themselves and their homes. What's sad is that the very people who complain about all the crime and how the crime rate is rising are the same people who witness these things and keep quiet. What if your son or daughter was shot or beaten up, wouldn't you want someone to tell you all they know? I know I would. I have so many peers that I went to school with and they are now locked up for killing people. It's sad really. But what can we do about it? I'm not here to preach but come on people use a little common sense. But then again, common sense isn't all that common. Later! ღ
So maybe three days ago, Aubree, my grandma, and I were at Walmart. Whenever I go somewhere with Aubree I sit in the back seat with her. This paticular day I stayed in the car with Aubree because she was asleep. Five minutes later I look up and this random guy was all in the car window. I noticed he was on the phone with someone and he kinda looked freaked out. So I thought maybe he was confused and thought that we were in his car or something. I turn around to look out the back window and he hands the phone to another guy. I told the guy to come to the car. I asked him what was going on. He said that the guy called DHS to report that a baby was locked up in the car by themselves. -_- When it was clear I was sitting in the backseat with Aubree the whole time we were at Walmart. Scary experience. 😣 Later 👋
Don't you hate the feeling of helplessness? Like when your car runs out of gas in the middle of nowhere or your child is sick and you can't make it go away. I think we all have times in our lives when we feel down and out. That's when helplessness sometimes kicks in. Well, I'm going through a situation that is eating me alive. It's to a point where I've thought about suicide and putting my daughter up for adoption. I guess a part of me feeling helpless about things is depression. After losing my mom, I really just don't have people to talk to. I haven't really met anyone who just understands what's in my head. That kinda makes me feel helpless too. Sometimes I think, why try to explain to people how I feel about something or why I say/do certain things when I wouldn't be understood anyway? I don't wanna feel helpless though. I do want to feel like I have a voice and can make some kind of difference. I have to get out of that mentality. I'm a mother now, I have a purpose. More purpose. It's just really hard trying to be a new mom, being 21, catching up on life, and figuring out who I am and what I'm about all at the same time. I guess I'll figure something out. Later.. Tia ♥
Don’t you just hate when you wake up in the morning on top
of the world and someone/something kills your joy? Yeah, me too. I’ve been a
mother for five short months now and I’ve dealt with the good, bad, and the
ugly. Right after having Aubree PP Depression hit me hard, as well as reality.
Maybe about a month after I found out I was pregnant, my mom kind of
“disappeared”. At first my family and I didn’t think anything of it because we
were use to her popping up and then leaving. But this time was different… She
missed birthdays, didn’t call, and nobody had seen her in a while. September of
last year we did a missing person on my mom. A place in Bailey, Ms, where my
mom was said to be seen, was searched. (This is the hard part..) Behind the
house were two graves.. I really don’t want to go into detail, long story
short, one of the graves was my mom. From what was found, she was there for a
long time. Relationship issues, birth, PP Depression, death, mourning, these
are just the beginning. Who knows what is going to happen or change in my life.
I have no choice but to be ready. Later.
Hi! My name is Tia and I am twenty one years old. I have a beautiful five month old daughter named Aubree and a wonderful boyfriend of six years.. This is my first time EVER being involved with blogging but I've decided to give it a try. :) Let's go to the beginning... My boyfriend and I met when we were kids back when girls had "cooties"! My boyfriend and his cousins made it seem like liking me was a bad thing. They even threatened to say that the other likes me just to be mean! But hey we were kids, no hard feelings. Shortly after first meeting, they moved away and I didn't see them again until years later. I didn't see him again until 2009. This is where the love at first sight kicked in. We flirted and started hanging out and boom! We started dating! I have never in my life felt so alive before. I really fell hard for him. Our relationship is FAR from perfect, but I really believe if two people really wanna be together they will make things work. :) February of last year I found out I was pregnant. I was terrified to tell anyone. I was scared too. Children was in my future but I didn't plan for now. Abortion was NOT an option for me. (Not gonna get on that subject.) I told my boyfriend and started telling my family members one by one. Everyone was so happy for me and that made me feel even better about the situation. In May I found out I was having a little girl. My church family threw me a wonderful baby shower. We're in a new year and the only things I have had to buy was formula and maybe two boxes of diapers! Going through my pregnancy and after giving birth, things got pretty low. I don't know if this is normal but I didn't want to do ANYTHING. I felt like I was a fat cow, I stopped eating. I kinda gave up on a lot. I lost a lot of weight because of my lack of appetite. I was so deep in my depression I felt lost and hopeless. Yes, I did seek help. I didn't want anything to happen to me otherwise I wouldn't have been able to take care of my daughter. In the present day I am very happy with where my life is. I love my boyfriend and my daughter to bits! One day we will be married and be even happier! Later! Tia ღ