Sunday, September 3, 2017

Hello September!


Hello everyone! Once again long time no post. This post is going to be a little update on me and what I’ve been up to. J

 

Last year I got my last relaxer in September, so you know what that means!! I have been transitioning to natural hair! Honestly I have been wanting to do this for a while but I have been afraid of short hair. I decided to transition instead of doing the big chop because of this fear. So it has almost been a year since my last relaxer, which is still a scary thought. I have gotten my relaxed ends cut some recently but still have a little relaxer still in my ends. I am learning more about my new hair journey everyday. A main reason I decided to go natural is because my daughter and my little sister are both natural. Even my grandmother is transitioning! I will upload pictures of our hair towards the end of this post. J

 

How I Do My Hair Now While Transitioning

I do things A LOT different now with my transitioning hair. Please know that I am still learning how to care for and do my hair. The things I do may not be “correct” but have been working for me so far. When it comes to my hair now, it is super thick versus how thin it was when I was getting it relaxed. When I comb it I use a metal pick or a paddle brush, water, and a conditioner. I like to do twist outs and braid outs, they work well with my hair. When I wash my hair I only use VO5 conditioner unless I have a shampoo/conditioner mix. I use that as a leave in and a deep conditioner. Honestly I have fallen in love with my hair. Even though I haven’t been transitioning long I am proud of the length and growth of my hair. My go to hairstyles are twist/braid out and just a regular afro puff. Any tips or advice would be greatly appreciated!

 

Update On Me: What I’ve been Up too

This is the harder part of my update. I have been dealing with depression since I was 8. I’ve talked to professionals, been on medication, the whole nine. These past couple of months have been pretty hard for me. I haven’t had an appetite and haven’t really been getting the rest I need. I’ve lost weight. My emotions are completely out of whack. Today I finally made myself do something about the way I have been feeling. It wasn’t an immediate fix but it’s a step in the right direction and honestly I’m very proud of myself. Just pray for me, send good vibes and positivity.

 

I guess that’s enough about me for now. Aubree is starting school and turns four next month! My sister is in the 8th grade taking Algebra I! So I guess a lot of good has happened to overpower the negative stuff. : ) Just stay positive, work hard, and be great.
 
 
 
Our Hair!!
 




Later!

 

Tia <3

 

 

Wednesday, May 31, 2017

Gemini Season!

Well hello there! Welcome to another post. We are coming to the end of another month! June is right around the corner which means.......Gemini season! I for one am a proud Gemini, June 5th. I will be 25! That's a crazy thing so say. I have watched my brother (21) and my sister (13) grow up! All of my classmates have families and degrees now. Time surely does not wait for no man. I just want to say a very early and happy birthday to all of the June babies! ๐Ÿ™Œ I hope that June will be a great month for everyone. Let's work harder than the month before so we can play hard later.

Today is going to be a very chill day for this mom! You know the usual, clean up, do some laundry, maybe binge watch an anime, and do some more blogging work. Today is going to be a great day. Another post will more than likely be up today, so stay tuned.


Here's a puppy in a burrito! Happy Wednesday. ๐Ÿถ

Later!

Tia ๐ŸŽ€


Tuesday, May 30, 2017

A Too Short Short Story

Hello and welcome to another post! This is a very random post. I was folding laundry and this popped into my head. I typed until I drew a blank. Hope you enjoy. ^_^

She was a girl raised with love and royalty. Her skin smooth and smelled of vanilla bean. Her hair the color of the sun. Her eyes were as blue as the ocean. Her name was Patience Grace. She was a bright young girl. One day Patience Grace asked her mom why her name is Patience Grace. Her mom replied, "because I wanted you, my child to learn patience and to do everything you do with grace". Patience Grace looked at her mom and smiled. Hugged her real tight and playfully ran out the room. 



Later!

Tia ๐ŸŒน

Sunday, May 28, 2017

Love Is..

Happy Sunday everyone! I hope everyone has had a great weekend and is ready for tomorrow's holiday. Today's post is something that has been on my mind and heart. Please read, comment, like, and share. :)

Love is..

  • a good morning smile
  • a "how are you doing"
  • thinking about a person while you smile like an idiot
  • noticing the small things
  • I love you texts while sitting next to your S.O.
  • kisses and hugs from your little ones
  • lifting them up when they are down
  • the feeling I get from writing
  • doing things just because you know your S.O. would like it
  • doing things you may not enjoy but do it because bae enjoys it
  • randomly singing to your S.O.
  • cooking their favorite meal
  •  putting the toilet seat down
  • getting random gifts from the little ones (Aubree loves giving me flowers)
  • getting the little one ready for school when you don't get up in time
  • despite all the flaws, knowing that this person is the one I want to spent the rest of my life with
This is just what I think. I feel like loving someone shouldn't be a hard thing to do. I think it's simple, you either love them or you don't. I wish people wouldn't rush getting into a relationship/marriage. It's okay to be friends for a while. And it's okay to not be sure what your feelings really are. That's the point of dating! But don't take it from me, I am not a relationship guru or anything. Love takes time and it simple cannot be rushed. 

Have a great rest of your day!

Later 

Tia

Saturday, May 27, 2017

Emotions and depression: How I've been..

Hi and welcome back to my blog! This will be a post about my emotions and things of that nature. Please be advised that some things in this post may cause tears or sadness. I am not looking for attention, I just want to be able to talk to people and let them know that they are not alone and it's okay to talk about how you feel. **This is a very personal topic but I wanted to share a little of my life story with you. Please be nice and considerate, thank you.**

Okay let's go way back in time to an eight year old version of me. I was diagnosed with depression at an early age. Along with depression I was born with fetal alcohol syndrome. Even as a child I felt different from everyone. The kids at school, kids at church, even random kids at the playground. I have always tried to fit in. If I recall correctly, I think the first thing I was depressed about was my teeth. For people who don't personally know me, I have a gap in my front top teeth. As an adult now I love it! But when I was a kid people weren't too nice to me. I was picked on for being short, for having naturally long hair, and for being a little heavier than most kids.

My two siblings and I were raised by our grandmother. She's the best and I give her all props for taking us in. Our mother wasn't able to take care of us. She would pop in every now and then but that was about it. Even though we never lived with her and she never raised us, shes always mom no matter what.

So around January or February of 2013 I found out I was pregnant. I was 20 years old. I was terrified to tell anyone. I told my boyfriend (now fiance :) ) first, then my mom. One by one I started telling my close family and friends. I waited to tell my grandmother last because I was afraid to tell her the most. My mom was so excited to be a "glam-ma". She rubbed my stomach and talked to Aubree a lot. At that moment in my life me and my mom finally had a real relationship. I was able to talk to her like a long lost friend. I enjoyed every moment of it. Being pregnant for my 21st birthday really hurt me. I felt like 21 was a milestone that I missed.

My sister's birthday was in April. No one heard from our mom. My grandmother's birthday was in May. No call, no show. My birthday came and went without her. We felt like something was wrong. My grandmother and grandfather went to the police station to file a missing person report.

**WARNING: THIS NEXT SECTION MAY BE KIND OF GRAPHIC**

In Bailey, Ms our mother was found behind a house in a shallow grave. And next to her was a man in a shallow grave. To this day I don't know all the details but I was told it was drug/money related and my mom had nothing to do with it. She was literally at the wrong place at the wrong time. The guy who shot and killed her (I will not be sharing his name) is free today and my mother is still gone. When I heard of this I didn't want my baby anymore. I wasn't going to abort but put her up for adoption. I felt like I was dead inside, I felt like my mom's death was my fault. I feel like I still need my mother even though I'm a mom now. It still hurts. It hurts to hear my daughter ask where my mom is. She's only three, what do I say to her?

I just want people to know you may never know what is on a person's heart. You may never know why that person cries so much. Try to always be kind to people, we may never know what they are going through. I have tried cutting, attempted suicide, tried to overdose on medicine. I have basically tried to ruin my life to make it better. I have realized that there are people who actually care for me as a person and care about my well being. And for that I love ya'll and I greatly appreciate you.


Later


Tia 

Sunday, May 21, 2017

Rants with Tia

Well hello there! Welcome to my blog. For those of you who are new, you aren't missing much. Once again it has been a while since I last made a post. Between working and family I just haven't had it in me to write. 

Today's topic is life.

Next month I will be twenty-five years old! That's a scary thought. Feels like just yesterday I was in high school (2011 ago). When I was in high school I wanted to go to school for nursing. A month after I graduated high school I enrolled in a summer class at my community college. I took Microbiology lecture/lab. I loved the class and the teacher. I even passed the class with a b! After summer term ended and the fall term started I was a full time college student ( go Eagles!) College was actually nerve wracking for me. I was such, and still is a very socially awkward person. Making friends was hard because I was shy and didn't care to talk to people. I tried to be a good student. My first semester I always went to class, did my homework, did extra credit, etc. At one point I started failing A&P I and math. My test scores have always been terrible. It's like I would pass everything but tests. When the time came to take the HESI test for the nursing program I signed up to take it. I bought HESI study materials and started studying. I took the test and waited for results to be posted. When the results were posted I found out that I passed my test! I passed the test to get into the LPN program!! I scored 70 points which was more than needed to pass. I met with my councilor to discuss what was next then the bad news came. She told me that even tough I passed the exam to get into the program, I wasn't passing the classes I needed. There were still other classes that I needed to take like public speaking which I was trying to avoid. That broke my heart. I felt defeated and didn't know what to do.

The next semester after getting my grant check, I slowly started skipping classes. I wasn't doing homework. I really felt like college wasn't for me. I eventually stopped all together. I even started at another college taking online classes in 2014. I was going for medical billing and coding. I enjoyed the classes and the teachers were really nice. I worked hard and studied. Submitted my assignments on time.With only two months left in my program, I quit.My councilors and teachers started emailing me and calling asking why I haven't been active in my classes. I didn't know what to tell them. I apologized and left it at that. I regret not being stronger to overcome what I was going through so I could actually finish something. I felt like I was letting people down. Now I am almost 25 no degree, certificate or nothing. Just a high school diploma. I want to go back to school but now I owe two different schools money. This point in my life nursing is a distant dream and medical billing seems more easier to grasp. I want better and I want to be great at whatever I decide to do. If you can dream it, you can do it. Just have to make sure you have the actions to back up your wants.

Later

Tia ๐Ÿ’Ÿ


Sunday, January 8, 2017

Things That Make Me Happy :)


Here is a list of things that makes me happy and smile. J

 

1.   Food

2.   Puppies

3.   My daughter

4.   My fiancรฉ

5.   Dogs

6.   Animals

7.   Big red gum

8.   The smell of clean clothes

9.   Root beer

10.         A nice hot shower

11.         Freshly painted nails

12.         When my makeup is on point ;)

13.         A clean house

14.         When the clock says 5:05

15.         The number 5

16.         New iPhone chargers

17.         Typing a long text with no typos

18.         Starting a book and months not go by before I finish it

19.         McDonald’s sweet tea

20.         Wendy’s spicy nuggets

21.         PINK!!!!!!!

22.         Pandas

23.         Achieving a perfect selfie

24.         Having a potty trained toddler

25.         The perfect combination of sea salt and pepper

26.         Ravioli

27.         A good book

28.         Full tank of gas

29.         Mac Books even though I currently have an Asus

I could have honestly kept going but I didn’t want to bore anyone, ha! I hope everyone have a productive week!


 

Later!

 

Tia